For most of my life I believed that the Feminine was weak, spoilt, illogical, manipulative, selfish, inconvenient, and did I say weak? But the more I heal and integrate my relationship to the Feminine, the more I see who I really am and where my true power lies.

It’s taken a very long time to love this woman: how she moves, how she thinks, how she speaks, how she feels, how she creates, and finally… how she looks. There’s a bazillion different reasons *not* to love ourselves – Fear can make every one of them compelling, convincing and reasonable.

“The privilege of a lifetime is to become who you truly are.” – Carl Gustav Jung

For me, that privilege means becoming a vessel for the Divine Feminine, Love, Magic and Beauty to pour through into the world… even and especially when it seems unwelcome, idealistic, fantastical, impractical and as provocative as Hell (and Heaven).

The majority of us in this crazy modern world are living as fragments of ourselves. Slaves to constant doing and busyness in the name of progress, productivity, and ideas of success. What if the fast paced modern world is a collective shadow of hiding our power and full expression?

Holders need holding too… At the end of the session with my coach today I said… “We could have just spoken about custard for an hour and it would have been exactly what I needed.” After a particularly intense day of holding others, I felt an unusually strong need to be held too.

I’m often told that I provoke people… to think; to feel; to open; to close; to Fear; to Love. It’s not exactly been an easy path but it’s one I’m growing to love as I see its gifts – the material for liberation it provides for me and others.

Most of our clients come from a background of various forms of spirituality, particularly non-dual and 3P. They’re drawn to us because they feel we are offering something that feels strangely “right” to them at that point in their lives.

I work with a lot of empaths… people with a gift that for most of their life has felt anything but. First of all their gift needs acknowledgement and then the work really begins… loving and cultivating themselves to become who they came here to be.

Three years ago I took a vow to serve the archetypal Feminine. It felt like a choiceless choice, I had no clear idea then why I was making it or what it would require of me.

Some of the transformation that the reader of the ‘Choose your own (real life) adventure book’ that I’m writing is already experiencing… after just over two weeks and only a third of the book!

No, I don’t mean be “greedy”, I suspect if you’re reading this it’s unlikely you will be. I mean: be in your appetite, ask for what you need and desire (especially what your soul desires), order off-menu, metaphorically but literally sometimes too.

Modern life today is all about more, more, more. And so is the natural world. The difference is: nature has death baked right in, whereas death has become such a cultural taboo we’ll do anything to avoid it in almost all its forms (whilst subconsciously seeking it in others).

I’ve been spending a lot of time this week feeling awe and appreciation for my work… it feels strange to call it a business, even though that’s what it is… it’s just that it’s really so much more than that, it’s an embodiment and expression of my very soul.

A question I’m often asked (most recently yesterday regarding Waking The Wild Medicine)… “I feel so drawn to your work but I’m concerned it’ll conflict with my 3Ps/non-dual training – is there a conflict?”

The soul-made YES is often the most frightening YES to say.This is the kind of choice we might need to take to our dreams, to the wild, to prayer… or however we can most clearly hear the voice of Spirit.This is the kind of choice the heart is clear on long before the head is willing to heed it.

My dreams and visions have been intense lately… a ceremonial bonfire in which I was throwing in the names of my identities, powerful spirit animals, walking alone and lonely, wandering Mayan ruins… and the synchronicities showing up have been pure magic.

‘The Knight’ so beautifully illustrates what happens when we guide people down the path of Waking The Wild… they’re liberated from compression, allowing them to stretch their limbs and hear their full voices.

At this point, it seems to me it’s a case of ‘when, not if’ we embrace real magic in our culture… Modern science is slowly catching up with what shamanic traditions have understood for eons (which in turn, most anthropologists obediently papered over until recently).

The myth: The easy part is discovering what your Soul Work is (AKA if you really had a soul purpose, wouldn’t you already know it?).

The reality: For many people this is the hardest part of all. I spent decades searching, knowing I was here for something deeper and more meaningful than running corporate websites (not that I’m knocking that, that might well be someone’s Soul Work, it just wasn’t mine) but couldn’t figure out what the flip it was.

You’ve never really felt like you fit in though you’ve tried your damnedest to do so (hello, Raven trying to be a pigeon).

You’ve struggled with hallucinations, migraines, visions or dissociative episodes (or maybe you’re like me and you can replace that ‘or’ with an ‘and’